Some people like to lead their life safe.
Some prefer to stick to routine.
Some hate to change.

While I,

I HATE DOING ROUTINE DAY-TO-DAY TASKS

I absolutely cannot stand it.
Admittedly, I get bored very easily, but honestly I can't help it!

When I was a kid, I got bored of my toys after playing with them for like 20min.

When I was in school, I only enjoyed my education years up till Form 3. Come Form 4 and 5, I decided to screw studying and just played. Needless to say, I gave my mom hell. Like really hell.

When I was 15, at Grade 8, I told my mom that I wanted to call it quits for piano. I just couldn't take it anymore! I was forced to only practice examination pieces every single week by the tutor. Same songs, same notes, same score arrangements - same shit. So bye bye piano lessons.

When I was in college, I got so bored attending lectures and doing crappy assignments, I'd skipped most of them and went to shopping malls instead. Midvalley was my favorite back then.

Now, when I am already in the workforce, I have to constantly remind myself that I cannot be like this anymore. That, this is serious business man. Your monthly income depends on this. Your love for new clothes and bags depend on it. Heck, my latest Harry Potter book depends on it!

But it's tiring, it really is  
All these trying to stay positive and be happy with what you have is really tiring when in reality, I am as miserable as a cow.

Why should I keep doing something that I despise day in and day out?
Why do I have to put up with shitty people who thinks they own the world?
Hell, why do I even have to feel like this???

I deserve to be happy. Everyone of us deserves to.
Having forced to do something that we despise every single day, just to survive is utterly sad and depressing.

I have this secret wish to be able to wake up every morning, smile and joyfully indulge in what I enjoy doing. Even if it's work, I hope for it to be interesting and bring immense self-satisfaction in what I do.
In other words, I need to be doing meaningful work.
But seriously, how many of us out there is really doing what they enjoy for work?

I'm 26 and I'm just a girl who craves a simple, happy and fulfilling life.
Ultimately, I see a great need to sit down and rethink my priorities and options in life.

*emo*