And I have reasons to believe that my throat is allergic to pork balls.

I am seriously not kidding!!!

The first time that this happened, I never did suspect that the irritation would have been caused by pork balls.
Now, being the second time around, it was DEFINITELY them, pork balls.
Don't get me wrong, I am NOT allergic to pork.
I love my bak kut teh very much, thank you.

I think I need to describe a little on the irritation.
See, when I am consuming pork balls, the irritation doesn't hit me immediately.
It's when I have finished my meal, go home, prolly have a shower and only THEN, it starts to irritate the throat.

How does the irritation feel like?
Ok, you have eaten pork balls right? Duh
These pork balls that I am talking about are not the commercialized ones where lots of flour are added in the mixture.
Instead, these irritants are handmade and rolled into huge balls of pure babi-ness.

The next time you have a handmade pork ball, bite it into half, chew and feel a little more.
You will find that the texture is slighly grainy, stringy ... arggh I don't know how to describe it!

But that grainy and stringy texture is exactly how my throat feels like after consuming them, pork balls.
And gawd, it is very VERY IRRITATING.

Only, this time, it is even more irritating, because it ONLY BLARDY IRRITATES MY THROAT ON THE RIGHT!
I can't stress enough on how annoying and sometimes, painful it is when this happens to me.
Painful, is when you are awake in the middle of the night with a dry throat.
So can you imagine when I do get up at night, with a sore RIGHT-SIDED THROAT?

It has been days since I last had them.
And it is still irritating the shit out of me!

NO MORE PORK BALLS FOR ME!

Not even those found in steamboats.
Die die also don't want to eat pork balls anymore!

Last night's revelation came as a surprise.
I thought you knew that I waited the whole night.
And here you are, after 5 years, finding out about what happened that night from Jessica.
Really, you shouldn't feel sorry about it.
The part when you said you didn't know how to appreciate at that time, I say to you - it's past now.

Hope you pick yourself up with this current break-up of yours.
You did it before, surely you can do it again.

9.09 am

People who created the myth that biting lightly on your new pair of shoes before wearing to avoid getting 'bitten' aka blisters should be SHOT DEAD.

These people include, my Mom, Gowri, Anne, and etc.

Seriously. I AM DEBUNKING THE MYTH RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW.
It doesn't work people.
I finally gave in to stupidity and decided that ok, maybe I should bite them before wearing.
And here I am seated on my desk with plastic wrappers of plasters all over the desk.
3 wrap-around plasters on my toes and 2 on each back of my heels.
Them new shoes 'bit' me so bad that even the liquid inside in the blistered area burst out while walking to work just now.

Just great lar.
I'm gonna wear pantyhose everyday now!
Coz according to Mimi, it worked for her.

I'm gonna have so much 'fun' in the showers later when the water hits the blistered areas

P/S: Guys, don't bother trying to comprehend what I've just wrote. Your macho brains are not designed to digest stuff like these

... and I am still trying to adjust myself to this alien world they call IBM.

Apparently people here do not use the word 'email'?

Devata: My first day here, my boss asked me to send a note to someone else requesting something to be done.
Me: Uh-huh. Then?
Devata: So I took a piece of paper and promptly wrote down the request and send that piece of paper all the way to the person who was on a different floor!
Me: *still not getting it*
Devata: In here, send a 'note' = send an email.
Me: *pengsan*

Which happened to me just now la. Thank God for this talk with Deva during lunch yesterday.
I called facility help desk just now requesting for something.
The fella responded by asking me to 'send a note' to Office.
I stiffled a laugh because if it wasn't for the conversation with Deva yesterday, I would have really written a note on paper to the office!

*LOL* - sorry still laughing.

I showed Mr Tay the amount of blisters on my feet.
Took off my shoes and showed him the sad display of plaster-wrapped toes.

Girl: Stupid shoes.
Boy: Not stupid shoes. STUPID FEET!
Girl: !!!!!
Boy: Your feet has been too pampered la. For 1+ year, you need not wear shoes for 9 hours straight you know. So, now it's like sudden shock to them la.
Girl: Hmm, true also. Makes perfect sense

So, blame the feet not the shoes  
Must remember to top up my plaster supplies now.

Some people here are weird.
Got this perfectly great complex here within walking distance, underground so don't have to kena sun and all, and STILL they wanna drive out and eat?
The other day, Joyce suggested driving out to Damansara Kim for lunch, I was like, "but but but.... One U... is just next doorrrrr..."
We went out anyway, and I had kon lou pan mee and both Sue and Joyce had loh pan mee, yummmm!

Pssst... yesterday during lunch, Deva said David has a nice smile.

"When he smiles, his eyes seems to smile too!"

I want to die laughing now lah. Hahahaaahaha!
Not that I disagree, I just find it amusing when I hear this kinda statement coming from someone else

There's this little stationery shop on my floor.
Employees can go there and request for stationaries.
New employee like me will go there and are given the basics - 3 pens of different colors, an eraser, sharpener, pencil and a long ruler.
I have made friends with Mr Ho, the person in charge there
Every other day I drop by and request for something new.
Yesterday I requested for stapler, Mr Ho said no, only bullets are given.
So ok, I asked for a blade
Just now, I went over and and before I could ask,

Mr Ho: Hahaha, what do you want now?
Me: Hee hee, just one notepad please *sweet smile*
Mr Ho: Sooner or later, everything in this shop will be taken away by you.

Still no Hot Guys sighted.
According to Mimi, most of them are in the Sales team on 19th floor.
"They dress extra nice coz they have to face clients mar."
Must pay a visit soon

1. External hardisk - asked more than 3 times.
2. Mug - asked 3 times.

Don't want to ask anymore.

I think last year, long long time ago, TWO years ago even, I was walking around One Utama.
This girl, came up to me and asked whether I am a Christian.
To which I replied yes.
Then she handed me a brochure of her church and asked me whether I would like to join them in their church.
I told her, I already have my home church which I went to regularly.
She then asked me what do I like to do during my free time.
What did I work as, email add and phone number, yada yada yada.
To which I stupidly gave.

Then came weekend, she smsed me and asked me whether I'd be going to her church.
I said no, was going to my regular church then.
Then, for the next couple of weeks, she'd sms / email me about her church activities.
Camps, Bible study groups, etc.
To which of course, I had always said 'no' to.

Then she stopped.
Stopped for almost 2 years now.

TODAY, she sent me an email

Date:	Mon, 20 Nov 2006 19:15:54 -0800 (PST)
From:	"Jamie Chin" <cannot simply put ppl's email la>  Add to Address Book  Add Mobile Alert Yahoo! DomainKeys has confirmed that this message was sent by yahoo.com. Learn more
Subject:	Hello Angie
To:	"Angie Low" <frenzyskye@yahoo.com>

Didn't strike to me who it was so I replied with,

"Hi Jamie, care to refresh my memory please? :)"

Right after she sent me that email, she added me in her Yahoo chat.
But of course, I don't simply add add people la.
I didn't approve her request yet.
Sent her my reply and waited for her reply first.

This was her reply:

Hi Angie,

 

We met at 1 Utama quite some time ago. We go to different Church. I go to Christian Fellowship Centre (CFC) church now.

 

U r wrkg as PA right? Hope u can recall me back.. What do u do during ur free time?

 

Rgds,

Jamie

Still not used to working in the same place, same office and same level as Mr Tay.
I was at the elevator with Sue and Joyce going down for lunch.
Was chatting with Kenneth, David's colleague who sits next to him.
Lift door opened and across the lift, the other lift opened and saw Mr Tay walking out with other colleagues.
(we try not to go to lunch together that often la, must discipline) 

This fella from HelpDesk Sametime-d me just now.
Sametime = internal messaging system here.
He was asking whether I am seated at 17LO5 because he needed to do some configurations for me.

Before I could answer 'yes', I terclick-ed his window off!
Then didn't know how to search for him back since I didn't add him earlier.

Now, I wait for him to "Hellooo?" me.

I navigate around my new work laptop with a button.
It's this Red button in the middle of the keyboard.
Mr Tay refers to it as  'The Nipple'.
Played around The Nipple before on Mr Tay's lappie so now I'm pro at nippling around.

3 rolls of toilet paper in the ladies!
Not 1 but THREE.
They have this container thingy with ample space to fit 3 rolls so tear away!

UNLIMITED FREE DRINKS ON THE VENDING MACHINES!
The vending machine behind me not so cool.
It only has Milo, Nescafe and Ice Lemon Tea.
Nescafe options on the machine here - Cream + Sugar or Cream or Black.
Then, I was kaypoh-ing around 17th floor (I work on the 17th floor too), trying to spy a bit on Mr Tay but ended up discovering this huge-ass employee lounge with another vending machine
This one, very cool.

It has Nescafe - Mild or Strong. More / Less: Sugar, Cream
Milo - Hot or cold. Tried the cold version. But still love my hot milo kosong better.
100 Plus.
Some other carbonated drinks which I didn't bother to recall. Prolly Coke.
AND GET THIS.
TEH TARIK!
I just had 2 paper cups of Icy Cold Teh Tarik which comes with tiny cube ices.
Love small-cubed ices!
So everyday I go to the machine and press-press-press

More culture shockness, will be reported in awhile.

Today I feel like putting up pictures of my shoes.
They are cute.

Patrick@work says:
damn

Patrick@work says:
1 utama.. when people jamming outside in traffic, you could be just walking in the mall looking at forever 21's latest spring collection and then feel hot , just pop over to celeb fitness and mandi or even do 2-4km runs... aaahhhh blissful delirium to the maxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Patrick@work says:
cilaka!!!!!!!!!!

Patrick@work says:
even if bf piss you off..

Patrick@work says:
I think all these are priceless

Patrick@work says:
Walk to work in 5 minutes = healthy

Patrick@work says:
Walk around in Shopping mall after work = informed of latest trends

Patrick@work says:
Work out in gym whenever you like = convenience

Patrick@work says:
Laughing at them fuckers stuck in the jam outside like mad water rats flushed through the sewerage = PRICELESS

My first day at work. Not that crazy la seriously. Only that I can step out of office after work later to buy an iron, a red bag, some fake flowers for my room and a small pink plastic holder

These days, I have been thinking alot.

Granted that things are looking quite alright on my side with the new job starting on the 20th Nov and I've moved to a new bigger and nicer place, I can be a wreck when left alone to think.

I'm not as complicated as some people may appear so, but to a certain degree, I have to admit that I am.
Inching a little deeper into getting to know me, I will let you in with a...
Confession time: I have this major MAJOR issue with Trust.

Yeah, go on, laugh it off and reply with a, "Who doesn't?"
Trust me, IT'S PRETTY MAJOR FOR ME.
Not everyone has the 'privilege' of having your trust, hope and love that took months and years to built all crushed away in matters of seconds.

I've been thru it back to back, all of which hurts like hell but does anyone have any idea or even care to imagine?
You won't understand the pain.
Really you won't.
Because no amount of words or how descriptive I try to be with my choice of words can ever make you understand.

Emotional scar as people might call  it, once cut will heal but it ALWAYS remains.
It teaches and reminds you to be wary at all times in order to not have to be cut again.
And lately, I've been reminded of it again.

Guys, incase you think it's ok to be flirting around with your gal pals / ex-gfs / ex-flings, think again.
Because one thing leads to another.
And because bless you men with philandering and the 'Quantity outweighs Quality' minds, it always starts with that one thing.
Just like opening the Pandora's Box - your exact words the other day.

So, I will continue to be wary.
It's tiring no doubt, but necessary to prevent the Bigger Hurt.
The Hurt --> The Bigger Hurt --> The Ultimate Hurt.
Right now, I'm at The Hurt.

I long for the day when I can just let go and be free, be 100% trusting and not be wary again.
Because as Frank Crane puts it,

"You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you don't trust enough."

MEN...

- WHO ARE GETTING MARRIED AND ARE STILL FLIRTING AROUND.

- WHO IS GETTING MARRIED AND IS EXCITEDLY SCHEMING HIS LITTLE WILD STAG NIGHT WHICH INVOLVES GIRLS.
(excuse me, but isn't stag nights just involve hanging around with your buddies, having a good drink and chat together?)

- WHO NOT ONLY IS SCHEMING HIS WILD STAG NIGHT BUT IS ALSO DRAGGING ALONG HIS OTHER BUDDIES WHO ARE CURRENTLY ATTACHED.

- WHO HAS ZERO RESPECT FOR THE FRIEND'S GF AND CAN STILL LOOK HER IN THE EYE AND SMILE DESPITE HAVING SCHEMED ALL THAT FUCKING BULLSHIT NONSENSE WITH THAT GIRL'S BF.

- WHO HAS NO GUILT WHATSOEVER FOR HIS FIANCEE OVER WHAT HAPPENS ON THE NIGHT BEFORE THE WEDDING.

- WHO STILL KEEPS IN TOUCH WITH THEIR EX-FLINGS. BEING PURE FRIENDS IS OK. FLIRTING AROUND WITH HER IS NOT OK.

- WHO GIVES THEIR GFS A REASON NOT TO TRUST THEM ANYMORE. ONCE BROKEN CONSIDERED DOOMED YA.

- WHO ARE READING THIS AND GO, "GEEZ, IT'S JUST SOME HARMLESS FRENCH-KISSING AND POSSIBLY SEX. BUT I LOVE MY GF/FIANCEE AND I WILL BE HER FOREVER TOMORROW ONWARDS. SO ONE LAST EXCITEMENT WON'T HURT."

KNOW WHAT? FUCK YOU MEN WHO THINKS THAT WAY. BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HURTFUL THAT IS TO THE WOMEN. SEE IF IT'S OK FOR YOU IF WE GO HAVE OUR LITTLE NAUGHTY PARTIES BEHIND YOUR BACKS, OR HAVE SOME 'HARMLESS' SEX THE NIGHT BEFORE THE WEDDING?

AND MEN WHO THINKS THAT 'SIGNING THE DEATH PAPER' AND 'I'M STUCK WITH HER FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE' IS FUNNY, SHOULD JUST GO SCREW THEMSELVES UPSIDE DOWN BECAUSE IF YOU GENUINELY LOVE HER, YOU WOULDN'T EVEN HAVE SUCH THOUGHTS IN THE FIRST PLACE!

SO YEAH. I HAVE ZERO TOLERANCE AND RESPECT FOR MEN PIGS LIKE THESE. "Gosh, lighten up girl! It's just the way it is now. A did it, so did B, and C's gonna have his Stag Night in a couple of months time." WELL SCREW YOU ASSHOLES WHO THINKS IT'S OK TO CHEAT BEHIND YOUR GFS AND FIANCEES. DEEP DOWN YOU KNOW IT'S NOT RIGHT BUT YOU STILL DO IT BECOZ YOU THINK 'IT'S COOL.' COOL, MY ASS.

What has become to KEEPING IT REAL? Fucking HYPOCRITES that's what you are.

Because people who are thinking straight and right would NEVER EVER do such a thing. Not to even think about it, let alone go planning about it. So, go ahead and think how uncool and a spoilsport I am, coz seriously, I Don't Fucking Care What You Think Of Me.

Because at the end of the day, you're disgusting. And I hold no respect for Disgusting Assholes like you.

Amen.