All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairy tale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe...
                        - Anastasia * Left Outside Alone

You met someone you think you and that person would make a good couple. You would like to get to know the person more and being the interesting person you are, you have confidence that the person would also like to get to know you better...

BUT

With some weird and twisted reasons, both of you just cannot take that ONE step to give it a try simply because... both of you just can't. So what do you do now? Do you let a great chance like this goes by untried. Are you willing to let this life-changing opportunity slip away?

 Did wise people not say that you should strive and work hard for the things that you believe in? Let not obstacles come your way bother and beat you down. Just believe, focus and try. Life's too short to be worrying what others might say, don't you think so?

So, I'd say to you single people out there who already has a special someone in mind but is hesitant in taking the first step, rid off all the 'what ifs', 'cannots', and 'this-isn't-right' for Life is indeed too short for you to be blessed with a second chance.

It is not often you get to know someone whom you'd think he / she will be the person who sprinkles magic into your life, but if you DO find him / her, do what you can and hold on to that person dearly.

Let it pass and the next ship might not arrived at all.

(P/S: In my case, yes there are a lot of fish in the sea but I think there's a hole in my net.)

Ok, this is getting a wee bit freaky.

This is the second time this thing has happened to me. I got to my car this morning with both my wipers on the front screen standing straight up. Not only that, the next thing that caught my eye was my rear mirrors on both sides were pushed in 'considerately'. I was like... what theeeeeee....

Not only that, I then proceeded to walk around my car to see whether any damage was done just incase, only to find my back windscreen wiper was also cheekily pushed up ramrod straight!

I stood there for a moment. For about 5 min I think. Didn't know whether to laugh or to panic. In the end, I laughed. The scenario was quite funny if you could see how my car looked like this morning. I mean, all the cars along the road didn't have that funny repositioning of wipers and rear mirrors, it was only mine!

The first time this similar incident took place last month I think. But at that time, they or he OR she, didn't touch my rear mirrors, just the wipers.

I wonder whether this is the work of my pesky friends. I have a hunch though that it could be this person. I shall SMS him soon.

You there... just wait.

 I have been having fever off and on for the past couple days. And it only hits me at night after shower. So at night I'll be struggling to sleep and by morning, I'll be fine. Weird.

This is exactly how I feel when I have a fever (and facing it alone):

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• After crossing two roads, walking from the car park area to the lift of my apartment - my legs will start to feel like jello and at that time usually, I wish for nothing but somehow magically have showered and am lying in bed.
• Upon reaching home, after dumping all the bags in the room, I'll proceed to laze around and rest it out a bit. Switch on the tv, check on SMSes, etc.
• Then I'll boil some water. Enough water for me to shower coz sick person should not bathe in cold water, so they say.
• Carrying the ... thing.... to empty out the hot boiling water into my readily half-filled tub with cold water is a struggle I tell you. This is when my whole body weakens.
• While showering, I take out my contact lenses, wash and store them away.
• During the process of showering, you must know that I am constantly shivering away eventhough it's warm water I'm bathing myself in.
• Next, my Tri-colored Colgate toothpaste is finishing. So, OMG, the amount of energy I have to utilize just to squeeze out a miserable dollop of toothpaste is exhausting!
• Then I whimpered and practically crawled back into my room to dry myself and put on some clothes.
• And after awhile, while resting it out on the bed, heat will slowly creep all over my body.
• Warm sensations on the neck, forehead, throat and palms.
• Scout around for Panadol or any leftover fever pills. Take 2 of it and continue trying to concentrate on tv.
• Then once in awhile, mummy will call to see how I am and no matter how hard I try to act healthy and bouncing, she will magically sense it. "You're sick aren't you?!" and the next sentence I always dread most... "Daddy and I are coming over NOW." That's when my power of persuasion kicks in. And I have been effective so far, for 3 nights in a row now.
• And that's not it yet. She will call every 2 hours till about 2+am just to check whether I have overheated and died. (Well, she didn't say that directlyla of coz but it felt like it). I have never been away from my mum whenever I was down with a fever, so I could really understand how she felt for the past couple of nights.
• Then comes morning... and Angie is magically well again :)

Another one is coming up tonight... after shower, I reckon.

*shrug*

hab·it (hăb'ĭt)
n.

1. 1. A recurrent, often unconscious pattern of behavior that is acquired through frequent repetition.
   2. An established disposition of the mind or character.
2. Customary manner or practice: a person of ascetic habits.
3. An addiction, especially to a narcotic drug.
4. Physical constitution.
5. Characteristic appearance, form, or manner of growth, especially of a plant or crystal.
6. 1. A distinctive dress or costume, especially of a religious order.
   2. A riding habit.

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I have a few habits, some are pretty annoying:

• Whenever I have locked my car, and after walking away (quite a distance, mind you) from the car park, a nagging feeling that keeps telling me that I haven't locked my car always tag along me.
• I always sit with my legs crossed.
• I always place my spoon and fork downwards after finishing a meal. I have yet come across a gentleman who does that, usually it's faced upwards.
• I key in the zone alphabet and number of the area I park my car in, in shopping malls under the SMS function.
• I write to myself when I'm extremely down or angry.
• I must have breakfast the moment I wake up. Can't function without breakfast, hehe.
• I like to chew on ice.
• I play with the straw with my mouth after finishing my drink during mamak sessions.
• Every night, I always sleep on my left first.
• I can't go by 3 days without a vigorous exercise.
• I can't stand messiness and hairs on the floor.
• I can't stand clogged sinks.
• I avoid chopsticks as much as possible, yea yea, call me a lousy Chinese all you want.
• I have never done reverse parking in my whole entire life.
• I speak English to both my brother and dad and Cantonese with mum. It's been like this eversince I was a kid. Would be awkward & weird to speak Canto with my dad and EVEN weirder with my bro.
• I still kiss my brother whenever I see him. He's 18 this year by the way.

And the latest entry to this list...

There's this sink in our new office which we utilize for washing our hands, mugs, etc and it is placed outside of the office. So everytime you need to wash something, you need to step out of the office and walk, say, about 1 metre to the sink.

So, what habit could Angie develop from a sink as such?

The sink needs to be shut tight. Even more tighter than the usual taps I would say. So most of the time, whenever I walk past the sink, sounds of water dripping melodically can be heard. So what do I do?

• Do I ignore and walk away? In hope that someone else will turn it off?
• Do I pretend I didn't hear it?
• Or being a nice person I am, walk towards the sink and turn it off?

You guys know the answer. Yes, that's how pathetic and anal I am. Sometimes I tried ignoring it as I have walked quite a distance away from it but YET I would still make a U-Turn and walked all the way to the sink - just to turn it off!

So that's me.

It's cold in here. Soothing to the eyes as I glance across the cosy ambience in my new office. I feel comfortable.

And as I'm sitting and thinking here, I have this urge in me to want to list down a few unacceptional unorthodox facts about myself that perhaps, I did not realised they were in me all these while.

So here goes:

1. I have an unacceptionally good memory. Too good that at times, it startles me when I could suddenly just remember things that happened as far as 15 yrs ago.
2. I'm a worry-wart. For example: If there's an issue which is not resolved or is facing a problem, the issue will stick to me like it's my Siamese twin. It will bother me so much that I can't do anything or function anymore.
   *** Trying as much as I can to change this bad habit of mine. Trying to learn how to take things easier and not get so anal about everything.
3. I never smoked in my whole entire life. (Though 90% of my circle of kawans do)
4. I used to be very fickle-minded. I still am, but lesser. Thus, making me a one very indecisive woman when it comes to making choices in shopping (or life partner? haha)
5. Colors overwhelm me. They blow me away so much that it amazes me and on the other hand, saddens me for knowing that some underprivileged people such as the blindsmen, could not see and appreciate the beauty of colors in this world. I mean seriously, have you ever thought about this? That these people don't even know what purple or green or blue means? Their world is just pitch black!
   *** I have this secret wish which I made when I was about 8yrs old that when I grow up, I will device a way / machine to enable the blind people see colors and rainbows for the very first time.
6. I have this knack of knowing whether I will have chemistry with him/her the very moment I speak to the person.
7. I love dogs. Love them, love them, love them.
8. In relation to colors, some of my favorite items are: crayons, paints, water colors, color pencils and... eye shadows.
9. I adore flowers. Gerberas, Carnations, Tulips, Daisies and Lilies being my favorite.
10. I am quite emotional. Therefore, tears flow out easily when I feel touched, saddened and angered.
11. My left feet is slightly bigger than the right.
12. I used to have asthma till I was 12 yrs old. I nearly died of dengue when I was 15.
13. I can't live without Music. Music dictates my Life.
14. I derive great joy in getting gifts for people. I honestly think that it totally revitalizes one's mind and soul.
15. When I'm down (when I have access to my piano in Puchong), I can play and play away up till 8 hours nonstop. If without a piano - I paint. And of lately, I simply blog.
16. I have always preferred noodles to rice. I have this secret urge to travel to Vietnam and try their noodles. They looked so yummy and inviting on Astro's Travel & Adventure.
17. Speaking of food, I'm a street girl. I love street food. The great display of the many varieties of colors and smell is indeed a sight to behold. Hence, my liking for pasar malams and flea markets :)
18. I freak my friends out by showing them how flexible my fingers are by bending them backwards.
19. My family and friends think I'm impulsive and being too nice to people.
    *** I shall prove them wrong.
20. I dig black and white photographs.

Quote to keep in mind in keeping it real:

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has opened before us."
- Helen Keller