girl's crying rainbow

I'm used to it by now.
Another day, just believe.
Just breathe. just believe.
Just breathe.
Lying in my bed,
Another day, staring at the ceiling.

- Telepopmusik

Another day, just breathe

Here's the deal.

You finally found someone whom you can click so well with and the chemistry is just screamingly amazing.
You are excited.
You're in LOVE.

The problem is, she/he has a partner of 4 years now.
But to give you a little hope, she has mentioned that her relationship with the bf is just ok, stale and just the same like every other day.
So what do you do?
Do you give up?
Or do you fight for it?

My friend, told me that at long last, "She's The One."

Last night, he asked me whether it is ok to have a relationship with someone working within the same company.
I said, "Ok, what."
He said, some of friends are against the idea, while some said it's ok if both of them are in different departments.
I said, "What nonsense. I said ok means ok alright. Just as long as you stick to the work ethics during working hours and not french-kissing in the pantry or something la."

He has been liking this girl in his office, BAT.
And, they have been hanging out together very often lately.
Told him, BAT is like damn big and want to have a relationship also won't be a problem, since they both work in different departments and they won't even have time to wanna play footsy la right?

He said, "Ok. But one problem. She has a bf of 4 years."

"Oooops."

"But she's the one. I just know it! She's so different and you know that I've been single for so long and I've just been waiting and waiting. And now I found her but she already has someone else. "

So there you go. What would you do, if you were caught in a situation like this?

This was Yan Yan early last year:

And this is Yan Yan now:

"Look Ma, I'm a big girl now. I don't need stupid eww-wy Barney anymore!"

I've been psychoing little Yan Yan into thinking that Barney is damn ugly and there are more wonderful toys out there like... Barbie!
Oh alright, she's a bit too young for Barbie and I hated Barbie too.
But, Barbie vs Barney - anyone in their right mind would know the right choice to make.

Die, you fugly dinosaur, DIE!

I have been sneezing all my life.
Every.Single.Morning.
Without fail, I can assure you.
It got so bad that it has been part of my life, like how you brush your teeth every morning, right.

Then, comes the most irritating part.
It will leak just like a dripping tap and I'll be sniffling for the next couple of hours till about 11am, it stops and dries up.
God knows how many tissues have I sacrificed! * imagining the number of trees I've killed too *

So, the point of this whole rambling is to let you all know that...

I AM NO MORE SNEEZING IN THE MORNINGS AND NO MORE IRRITATING LEAKY NOSE!!!

At first, it stopped 3 days ago.
To be totally sure of it, I waited till today, the 4th day.
And clear enough it has stopped.
All thanks to my mom and her ever super nagging power.
She got me this.

Omega-3 pills with Vitamin E
She got me this NOT for the nose problem but for overall health benefits.
Don't ask me how, but somehow it got rid of my daily nose problem

***

On a different note, today is the 26th Jan.
In exactly 4 more months from today, I will turn 26.
26 on the 26th! It is like this once in a lifetime kinda thing for me. Hahahaha!
I mean, look at Mr Tay. His birthday is 4th of May.
So this once in a lifetime thingy for him, happened when he is 4.
FOUR.
What could the poor kid at 4 yrs old possibly know about this 'auspicious phenomenon' la?
My brother lagi teruk, 2nd of Jan. 2 yrs old, was still sucking on a milk bottle *heehee*

Anyway, today has been a beautiful day, so give you this.

I L O V E  R A I N B O W S

So does the Moon and Stars.
But, the Rainbow paints the widest smile on my face

And seriously,
You just can't put a number to just how many Rainbows you can have in your Life

She is feeling very down.
Or confused and lost.
She doesn't know why and how she could have broken down so terribly embarassing infront of the boy last night.
And heck, she doesn't even know why she is STILL feeling so knotted inside now.

Last night, she walked in and saw the beautiful purple deco and silently thought to herself, "This is how I've envisioned mine to be."
She was getting sentimental but yet, she shrugged and held it back like a real tough cookie.
She saw Kelly's brothers and sister all grown up now and she started feeling the connection to them all over again.
Still, she held it back nicely.

What she didn't know was how sentimental she could become, the moment Shania's From This Moment was played and Kelly walked in - glowing with such indescribable happiness and joy.
She was starting to tear.
She told herself, "Don't do this now. Grab that damn tissue for God's sake!"

She held on.
Through the first course, second course, but when Kelly came over and they hugged, she broke down.
"Do you know when you walked in, looking so beautiful and all, I cried?!"
She had loved her almost all her life.
Since they were both in Standard 4.
Same primary (same class all the way), same secondary naturally, and somehow same college as well.

Kelly was then her best friend.
Till Kelly had to leave to Australia to study and somehow they couldn't keep in touch as often as they could.
Or should.
Got a job there, met her boy and now they are bounded together as husband and wife.

She asked the boy how is it that he never felt this emotional when his secondary school friend got married?
He just didn't know.
But then he added,

"You know her since primary, and all the way up till college, you both were together, so that could be why you're feeling so sentimental now. You are right, I cannot comprehend this because I never had this kind of friendship before."

And also, the fact that we aren't as close before because she's in Australia now makes it even more depressing for me, I silently told myself.

Boy added, "And also, I know there are other factors involved that made you so depressed right now. Other factors, not just Kelly."

He's right.
She knows he's right.
She swallowed it all in and told herself, "All in good time."

So, she cried all night in the arms of the boy.
Just shaking uncontrollably as they kept talking and talking and talking and talking...

And, today, she woke up with a pair of very swollen eyes.
Everything... was just so beautiful last night.

***

Note: Just had the sudden urge to browse the DailyBread for today and saw how God's words were aptly put.

Matthew 6:
"Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what will you put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than than clothing?

"Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

Mr Tay with Rainbow and Birdies

My first appearance in Mr Tay's hp was just a simple "Angie".

Few months down the road, I curi-curi changed the boring calling name of moi in Mr Tay's hp into ---> Girlfriend
Mr Tay 'lectured' me.

Boy: See la, simply simply change, if emergency I wanna call you how? Have to search the whole phone like mad right?!
Girl: *pout* You don't remember my number one meh? *pout*

So for the next few months, whenever Mr Tay wanted to call me, he'd automatically hit the alphabet "G".
"G" for "Girlfriend".

Then, one day, I got bored again.
Decided to change my name in Mr Tay's hp again.
"Bi, I curi your phone for awhile k?"
"Mmmmm."

So ok, what shall I put this time?
Hmm... preferably something difficult for him to scroll and search, get all worked up, geram until wanna meletup and then would want to 'lecture' me again.
*sinister laugh*
So, like what?

I changed, "Girlfriend" ---> "MUACKS"

Hahahahahhahahahahaha!

Mr Tay was like, "Wth! Muacks????" *bitch bitch bitch*
Me,

And mind you, Mr Tay beared with all my nonsense k.
He didn't change the ever-eww "MUACKS" to anything simpler. Or less embarassing.
It was "MUACKS" all da way.

... till a couple of months back
My itchy-fied fingers wanted to modify my calling name in Mr Tay's phone again.
This time, it was easier.
Those who've read Mr Tay's testimonial for me on Friendster would understand this.

My new calling name on Mr Tay's hp ---> NOISY GIRL!
With an exclaimation mark. All caps.
Yup. NOISY GIRL! for almost 6 months now.
Sometimes, when Mr Tay calls me, I say, "Hello" and he'd go, "Noisy girl! Where are you?"
*lol*
And, I still get a kick whenever I call Mr Tay and I'd imagine his phone screen blinking NOISY GIRL! madly.

And do you know what's the best part is?
He puts up with my nonsense
Gives me ample room to inject some 'creativity' into his handphone.
Very very sickeningly syiok!

*lol*

...t i f f a n y's

Butterfly, this is for you:

 +
You like Moon and I like Stars

So Moon + Stars equals this?

*Hee hee*

Lovely

"A heart in love with beauty never grows old."

She is just so effortlessly gorgeous.
Brad & Angelina at the Golden Globe Awards 2007