She is feeling very down.
Or confused and lost.
She doesn't know why and how she could have broken down so terribly embarassing infront of the boy last night.
And heck, she doesn't even know why she is STILL feeling so knotted inside now.

Last night, she walked in and saw the beautiful purple deco and silently thought to herself, "This is how I've envisioned mine to be."
She was getting sentimental but yet, she shrugged and held it back like a real tough cookie.
She saw Kelly's brothers and sister all grown up now and she started feeling the connection to them all over again.
Still, she held it back nicely.

What she didn't know was how sentimental she could become, the moment Shania's From This Moment was played and Kelly walked in - glowing with such indescribable happiness and joy.
She was starting to tear.
She told herself, "Don't do this now. Grab that damn tissue for God's sake!"

She held on.
Through the first course, second course, but when Kelly came over and they hugged, she broke down.
"Do you know when you walked in, looking so beautiful and all, I cried?!"
She had loved her almost all her life.
Since they were both in Standard 4.
Same primary (same class all the way), same secondary naturally, and somehow same college as well.

Kelly was then her best friend.
Till Kelly had to leave to Australia to study and somehow they couldn't keep in touch as often as they could.
Or should.
Got a job there, met her boy and now they are bounded together as husband and wife.

She asked the boy how is it that he never felt this emotional when his secondary school friend got married?
He just didn't know.
But then he added,

"You know her since primary, and all the way up till college, you both were together, so that could be why you're feeling so sentimental now. You are right, I cannot comprehend this because I never had this kind of friendship before."

And also, the fact that we aren't as close before because she's in Australia now makes it even more depressing for me, I silently told myself.

Boy added, "And also, I know there are other factors involved that made you so depressed right now. Other factors, not just Kelly."

He's right.
She knows he's right.
She swallowed it all in and told herself, "All in good time."

So, she cried all night in the arms of the boy.
Just shaking uncontrollably as they kept talking and talking and talking and talking...

And, today, she woke up with a pair of very swollen eyes.
Everything... was just so beautiful last night.

***

Note: Just had the sudden urge to browse the DailyBread for today and saw how God's words were aptly put.

Matthew 6:
"Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what will you put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than than clothing?

"Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

Mr Tay with Rainbow and Birdies

My first appearance in Mr Tay's hp was just a simple "Angie".

Few months down the road, I curi-curi changed the boring calling name of moi in Mr Tay's hp into ---> Girlfriend
Mr Tay 'lectured' me.

Boy: See la, simply simply change, if emergency I wanna call you how? Have to search the whole phone like mad right?!
Girl: *pout* You don't remember my number one meh? *pout*

So for the next few months, whenever Mr Tay wanted to call me, he'd automatically hit the alphabet "G".
"G" for "Girlfriend".

Then, one day, I got bored again.
Decided to change my name in Mr Tay's hp again.
"Bi, I curi your phone for awhile k?"
"Mmmmm."

So ok, what shall I put this time?
Hmm... preferably something difficult for him to scroll and search, get all worked up, geram until wanna meletup and then would want to 'lecture' me again.
*sinister laugh*
So, like what?

I changed, "Girlfriend" ---> "MUACKS"

Hahahahahhahahahahaha!

Mr Tay was like, "Wth! Muacks????" *bitch bitch bitch*
Me,

And mind you, Mr Tay beared with all my nonsense k.
He didn't change the ever-eww "MUACKS" to anything simpler. Or less embarassing.
It was "MUACKS" all da way.

... till a couple of months back
My itchy-fied fingers wanted to modify my calling name in Mr Tay's phone again.
This time, it was easier.
Those who've read Mr Tay's testimonial for me on Friendster would understand this.

My new calling name on Mr Tay's hp ---> NOISY GIRL!
With an exclaimation mark. All caps.
Yup. NOISY GIRL! for almost 6 months now.
Sometimes, when Mr Tay calls me, I say, "Hello" and he'd go, "Noisy girl! Where are you?"
*lol*
And, I still get a kick whenever I call Mr Tay and I'd imagine his phone screen blinking NOISY GIRL! madly.

And do you know what's the best part is?
He puts up with my nonsense
Gives me ample room to inject some 'creativity' into his handphone.
Very very sickeningly syiok!

*lol*

...t i f f a n y's

Butterfly, this is for you:

 +
You like Moon and I like Stars

So Moon + Stars equals this?

*Hee hee*

Lovely

"A heart in love with beauty never grows old."

She is just so effortlessly gorgeous.
Brad & Angelina at the Golden Globe Awards 2007

Ok, I just needed to get this off my chest.
Because it has happened to me one too many times lately!
3 F***king Mega Pissed Me Off Situations:

#1
You're on the road.
Stuck in a jam.
You pull your handbrakes up and patiently wait on.
Then all of a sudden, your eyes grow big and you gasp(!) because the dumbfuck moron infront of your car (either realized or doesn't realize it) is slowly reversing dangerously towards you.
So what do you do?
Many of a time, I would rather not honk and hope that in that nanosecond, he would realize it and immediately hit on the brakes.
But nooooo, not yesterday.
This dumbfuck of a driver was slowly reversing towards me on the LDP highway.
I honked once. Did he get it?
Nope, was still nicely reversing towards my car.
So, out of desperation, I blardy honked again but did he stop this time?
NO! HE WAS STILL FUCKING REVERSING TOWARDS ME!
At that time, he was really really REALLY gonna hit my car.
My heart skipped a beat and I HONKED LIKE THERE WAS NO TOMORROW.
Then, that ass of a moron gently hit the brakes, wound down the window and lit a cigarette up to smoke.
KNN!
Very funny is it!?!
I HATE PEOPLE LIKE THAT!
I seriously counted, there was like a 5 - 7 seconds of him reversing towards me.
Asshole had a reflex of a 80yr old.

#2
This probably applies to the ladies, not too sure about the men.
You're in the fitting room trying on some clothes.
The fitting room is not exactly the type where you can latch on and have it locked up from inside.
It's the cloth type where you have to pull both sides of the cloth towards the innermost of the fitting room in order to prevent people from peeking through.
So, I kena this like a few times already.
And hello, IT IS REALLY REALLY BLARDY IRRITATING.
I would be in my bra & panty or sometimes braless but with a panty, happily trying to put on some top or skirt and...
All of a sudden, there will be this lady yanking open the cloth of the fitting room, exposing me semi-naked to the world and me?
Too shocked to feel pissed yet. I usually freeze for awhile.
WHICH PART OF THIS SCENARIO OF A CLOSED FITTING ROOM MEANS THAT THERE IS ACTUALLY SOMEONE IN THERE WHICH THESE PEOPLE DO NOT UNDERSTAND??!
I mean come on...
Even if you've been waiting for a long time, and starting to doubt whether there is someone in there, a little courtesy of "Hello, is there anyone in there?" would suffice.
No, I'm sorry but "Sorry I didn't know" just won't do it for me.
I'd usually yell from the inside, "HELLO DO YOU MIND!" or when I'm extremely irritated depending on how exposed I was, I'd yank the cloth slightly open and look at her and say something like this...

Me: Excuse me, which part of this covered fitting room that you do not understand that there is actually someone in here?
Moron: Oh sorry, I didn't know.
Me: Won't die if you ask first you know?

*yanks back cloth back*

#3
There are 6 elevators in the office. With 3 facing the other 3.
So, say if you get there first with these few other people.
You can't tell which elevator will arrive first so you just wait at any sides of the elevator.
Say, me and the few other people waited at elevator A.
Then, about 1++ min later, another small group of people arrive, waiting for the elevators too.
And they are standing at say, elevator C.
So, finally the elevator arrives and it arrives at D. 
People that were waiting at A rush over to D only to find that they (and me) have to deal with...
THOSE INCONSIDERATE BASTARDS WAITING AT ELEVATOR C WHO CAME MUCH LATER, SQUEEZING THEIR WAY IN TO ELEVATOR D.
Completely and totally ignorant to the fact that we were waiting there first, they just barge right through in!
Animals!
So, in elevator D, there are already some people in there, so plus those morons, the whole elevator D is filled to the brim.
And we, the first group waiting there have to wait on for the next one.
Mimie got so pissed once, while the door at elevator D was closing, she gave out a loud "INCONSIDERATE PEOPLE! MENYAMPAH!"

*lol*
I like her. She doesn't give a flying fuck whether whatever she says will offend you or not.
Piss her off and that's it.
That's my kind of girl

So you tell me, how do you deal with people like these?
Don't tell me the breathe in, breathe out *ooooosa* crap
Doesn't work for me.
I just do it my way....

BLOW.

You know how someone said something the other day and it shocked you big time but you calmly collected yourself up and successfully pushed the issue to the back of your mind but only to realize that it's still there?

Today, is exactly that.
It came out today.
No, make that, GUSHED OUT.
Like waters rush out of a burst dam.

Common goals in life.
A friend mentioned that to me just now.
"Do you both have common goals in life in the first place?"
To a certain degree, I would want to believe that we do.
But at this point in time, I don't think you know mine very well.
Or as you do best, choose to ignore.

So how do you deal with it?
Push it back to the back of your mind a little further?
Suck it all in and just let it be?

Common goals in life - Knowing and Having are two very different entities.

It was a nice cozy night over dinner at La Bodega last Saturday.
The newly-wed JC called us up for dinner and I thought it was just some simple chinese dinner.
I had already imagined in my mind some lok lok action - a round pot in the middle of the table containing hot boiling water, me holding a stick of si ham, waiting to dunk it in for 5 sec and dip them in yummy red hot chili and and...
Then, *pfffft* all hopes are dashed.
Mr Tay announced that we were heading to La Bodega.

EVEN BETTER I SAY!

Got there at 8.20 to find JC, Tina & bf were already there.
We had interesting impromptu chat topics here and there.
From:

1. IBM (naturally)
2. to diving trips and how hard it was to book the tics via the current Air Asia promo
3. to JC's future plans
4. to EPL *yawn*
5. to David Beckham earning $1 mil per week in LA Galaxy
6. to Ronaldo's disastrous faux pas hairstyle aka Shao Lin monk's hair
7. to how our parents used to punish or beat us (which was hilarious!!!)
8. and to what cartoons we used to watch when we were kids

I'm going to talk about item 7 and 8.

JC as a kid:
- dad used to whack him with a belt.
- but that stopped when JC was big and tall enough to place his hand onto his papa's head and that poor man couldn't see becoz his head was facing downwards and arms were flailing all over trying to hit pesky JC.
- if you can imagine this well, it's actually quite hilarious.

Mr Tay as a kid:
- being a smart ass since small, he found escape when dad was chasing him with a rotan --> he ran around the car.
- when mom was chasing him in the house, he ran around the dining table.
- his dad had a VERY FUNNY way of punishing him

And I quote Mr Tay:
"My dad would draw a CIRCLE on the floor and asked me to sit inside the circle for a certain period of time. So, I just sat in there and kept staring at the clock and when it was time's up, I jumped up and dashed away!"

OMG, I couldn't stop laughing at this because it was so cute! I mean what a way to punish your kids.
Knowing Mr Tay who cannot sit still and has very little patience, it was really hard for him to sit within the circle!
But he obediently sat on. Hahahhahahahaha!

Me as a kid:
- I got my caning doses primarily from my mom (dad never whacked me, coz he damn sayang me)
- my mom used clothes hangers ok (plastic and metal ones)
- and I used to wonder how is that I do not get the rotan just like every other kid
- JC and I both agreed that hangers leave imprints on your body (a temporary patterned swell), he got whacked by hangers as well

Sounds familiar???
Did YOUR parents cane you when you were small?
If yes, how bad lethal was it?

We then moved on to cartoons and kids' programs.
OMG, I swear we were such cartoon junkies!!!
Each of us named a cartoon and ALL of us went, "Ya ya ya!"
The list of shows mentioned:

• Thundercats
• Power Rangers
• Transformers (omg you should see how excited the guys were talking about this!)
• Jem and the Holograms (my favorite! JC, being a guy could sing the theme song ok)
• Carebears
• My Little Pony
• Mask Rider
• Captain Planet
• He-Man and the Masters of the Universe
• Ewoks
• G.I Joe
• Smurfs (Mr Tay's question: Why is there only ONE female smurf aka Smurfette in the WHOLE community? So she serviced all the smurfs?) Damn sick I tell you.

So, were you a cartoon junkie like us?
How many on that list can you strike a 'yes'?
I found more which we did not mention that night here *click* 

And what's up with the kids' shows these days?
SpongeBob Square Pants?
Barney????????

My MSN status today:

The Purple One messaged me:

Seriously this is the first time I hear someone refer raisins as nipples!
Hahahaha!
So, anyways from that conversation, I was inspired to list down the things that both Mr Tay and I like / dislike.
Macam sorting out our differences la 
And here it is..

 

BOY	GIRL
Hates raisins	Loves anything with Rum&Raisin
	- ice cream, chocolate, etc
Hates prawns and sotong	Loves prawns and sotong
Hates red or green capsicum	Loves using red or green
	capsicum for cooking
Loves layer cake	Absolutely hates layer cake
- those colorful colorful ones - yucks
Dislikes displaying public love affection	LOVES public love affection
Hates si-ham	Si-ham rawks!
Dislikes shopping	LOVES shopping
Hates wasting money	Loves wasting money
	Motto in Life:  Everything.Must.Buy
Impatient Twerp	Patient Saint
Loves siu yoke	Dislikes siu yoke
Believes in delayed gratification	Play first - Suffer later
Hates durian	LOVES DURIAN  *orgasmic!*
Hates to SMS	Loves to SMS
Hates brinjals and bittergourd	Loves brinjals and bittergourd
Loves to think that I'm stupid	Loves to believe that HE is stupid

Sigh... we make such a 'lovely' couple.

So, ever thought of listing down the differences between you and your partner?
Try it, you'd be pleasantly surprised looking at the neverending list and might start to ponder on the reason of why you are still happily in love with him/her.

"Opposites attract because they are not really opposites, but complementaries"
Sydney J. Harris

Ok, this SMS just came in fresh from The Ex.

1st sms - Hi... would you mind terribly telling me what you put into the steamed fish you used to make?

2nd sms -... btw, it's 4 years and 9 days since we first spoke. how time flies... hehe

OMG! I dunno lah.
Seriously dunno whether to be irritated or ketawa gila babi!

By the way it's:

- Dory Fish cut into halves, marinated in chopped garlic, onions, sesame oil, pepper and black pepper granules (garlic + onions + black pepper granules to be pounded on the mortar)
- Rub all over fish
- Sliced tomatoes
- Tauhu cubes
- Steam

No need to add water on fish because, while steaming, sauce from fish marinade will flow out.

I will do this exact steamed fish for Mr Tay this weekend.
Hah!