I used to wonder how is it possible for someone to lose their appetite over some 'tragedies' in their lives.
I mean, hey you're bound to still feel hungry after all the hullabaloo, shits and whatnots right?!
All the cryings, sudden outburst of emotions, screamings, sighings, bitchings - they can only take so much of your energy and leave you extremely emotionally drained.
And tired.
So, how can you say you are not hungry? Don't feel like eating? Or better still, the overused term 'No appetite."

But I fully understand the term now.
So many things have happened lately, one shit after another, it just makes me so so so very tired from it all.
Each time I click on Create a New Entry, I am tempted to pour my agony all out within the confines of the little square box.

• I wanted to scream "Screw you!!! You story-changing bitch!" and "Screw you, you think your son is THAT innocent?!" at the pain-in-the ass landlady of mine.
• I wanted to curse the daylights out of the fucker who stole my laptop. Refer to angst statement above.
• I wanted to whine when I fell ill due to the fall that led to an infection of massive fever, cough, flu - all rolled into one.
• I wanted to have someone who'd knew exactly how shitty and depressed I felt over the past 2 weeks, just someone to know how was it like and that I was not crying alone - thank you, I had You.
• And I just wanted to cry it all out here.

But I just couldn't bring myself to type them down.
Apparently, somehow my hand-eye-brain coordination wasn't at its best behaviour.
I lost my appetite quite badly that I never felt hungry?
Had thought that I have gotten better but today's team lunch sponsored by The Boss at Penang Village, TTDI proved that I was wrong again.
How can you tell whether I've lost my appetite? Simple.
I DIDN'T ORDER MY FAVORITE RAINBOW ICE KACANG.
Everyone was having their fancy drinks, fruity concoctions and colorful blends while I only could manage a "Warm water please."

I also have a new habit.
I love staring into space. Can do it anytime and anywhere.

Oh yeah, did I mention that I was doing some serious property-shopping over the weekend?
I have one unit which I LOVE TO DEATH and is in the midst of Negotiation.
And if all goes well, I honestly think this would be a new turning point in my life.
It would certainly lift up this depression cloud I am currently under right now.

I hate the fucker who stole my laptop.
I hope that when he is nicely surfing using my x30 Thinkpad, the battery will explode and destroy his fcuking face.